happy birthday!

today is Pak Lah birthday and Nadiah bte Harith b'day!.. hope it's going to be a great day to both of them.. may Allah bless them both.. to pak lah.. thx for everything that u hv done to our country... to nadia.. thx for making my life so cheerful & happy!... hope u'll do great tomorrow in your xm.. then u can join me "berpoya poya" all nite long~~

it's holiday... yeah.. for me at least... but i still hv no idea what to do.. got any ideas?

advice from dr. syazmir...

men agree that one of the most attractive qualities in a woman is when she's self-assured...likes herself...is comfortable with who she is.. .likes how she looks and most importantly.. she's happy... it's impossible to be all those things when u're shy or insecure... insecurity means u r worrying about how other ppl see YOU..how they feel bout YOU.. and how they judge YOU... so.. if u want to overcome your feeling of insecurity.. the first thing u should do is to learn how to make yourself happy without the need of other people's help.. learn how to love yourself.. spend some time on yourself to be pampered and do the things that would make u feel beautiful and wonderful... go to the saloon.. go to the health spa.. do things that u wouldnt normally do.. and prove that u can be a fun person without changing who u are..without being someone else that u're not..take some time to reach deep inside your innerself.. sometimes it can be surprising that a lot of us know more about other ppl than knowing ourselves..it's even surprising that some friends know us better than we know about ourselves...how can we learn to love ourselves if we don't even know bout ourselves well.. when u feel happy and comfortable of who u really are.. automatically u will feel more secure about yourself... thus, making u more attractive and invulnerable from other ppl's perception.. :) to whom it may concern... trust me.. if u can overcome your insecurity & inferiority.. u will be a lot more happy and u can be happy with anyone u want.. eventhough u dun hv to hear this from someone else.. trust me.. if u see what i see in u thru my eyes.. u'll know how special u really are.. i have the gift to see the beauty in ppl eventhough themselves can't see it.. and u are one of the most beautiful person i have ever encountered in my life.. love yourself and ppl will love u more.. =)

sirap anyone?...

yeay!!.. alynn ckp dier nak kasi gak kad raya.. by hand plak tue!.. woohooo.. it wasn't such a bad raya after all!.. mwahhh.. cayang ko alynn!...

just got back from Hassan.. while i was there.. i watched the television and there was a basketball match.. i'm not in to basketball so i dun really know who's playing.. anyhoo.. what caught my attention was this one chinese guy playing in NBA.. it's a very rare sight.. an asian playing with blacks n whites.. and the best thing is.. he's the tallest guy on that court.. he's like a giant!.. he dun even have to jump if he wanted to touch the ring. totally awesome!..

ok.. this might sounds a lil bit weird.. but i just had the best "sirap ais" i've ever tasted in my entire life!.. i know it sounds a lil bit too excessive... but seriously it was superb!!!.. woohooo.. what did the mamak put in that syrup?!..

a love song for no one...

Staying home alone on a Sunday,
Flat on the floor looking back,
At an old love,
Or lack thereof,

After all the crushes have faded,
And all my wishful thinking was wrong,
I'm jaded,
And i hate it,
I'm tired of being alone,
So hurry up and get here,

Searching all my days just to find you,
I'm not sure who I'm looking for,
I'll know it, when I see you,

But until then,
I'll hide in my bedroom,
Staying up all night just to write,
A love song for no one,

I could have met you in a store,
I could have passed you on the sidewalk,
Could I have missed my chance,
And watched you walk away?

Hurry up and get here,
So we can start our life together,
I'll treat you good,
And you'll make me feel nice,

Hurry up and get here,
So i can love you forever,
You'll be my princess,
And i'll be your prince.

out of words...

so many things to say.. too many stories to tell.. yet i can't spit it out.. anyhoo.. good luck to all of u who's taking xm next week!.. finals or spm.. we all fighting the same war here.. may God be with us. amin..

hari raya...

first of all, i want to wish all of you a very happy happy hari raya aidilfitri no matter where u are... this year i only sent around 20 raya cards coz i've lost all of my contacts.. my phone broke the other day.. so to those who didnt receive any card from me.. i'm sorry.. but note this; i still remember each and everyone of u during this raya :)

my raya celebration this year was kinda boring.. nothing special about it.. i'm facing the final xm in a couple of days so i can't really enjoy raya this year.. futhermore, my "duit raya" collection seems to getting less and less each year.. ironically, the more i need to have money the less i get.. :( this year i didnt get any raya card.. usually every year i'll receive at least one raya card from Alynn.. but this year she forgot about me.. T_T.. sampai ati ko lynn...

to make it worst.. on the 1st raya, while my bro "sembahyang raya".. his bagpack that full of stuff got stolen from his car.. he lost his Sony Cybershot, Sony Clie, Sony Mobile Phone, Card Credit and a bunch of other stuff.. total lost was about 3-4k.. even "duit raya" for the childrens got stolen.. i never seen him so sad during raya before.. sob sob...

the only intresting thing i did this raya was to go to the Negeri Sembilan MB's Open House...eventhough we didnt get any "duit raya" but the food are well served.. went to a couple of houses that are mostly my cousin's.. then headed home.. i didnt even eat lemang this year!.. i chat a while ago with amal who's studying in Indiana, US. She told me that even she had lemang there!.. she made it by herself using microwave.. hehe.. sounds intresting aye?.. it's a secret receipe passed down from her mom.. :)

anyway.. nuff bout hari raya.. just don't forget to invite me to your open house kay?..

my sweetheart got hurt on her leg today while playing ice skating.. T_T poor my lil baby.. hope u'll feel much better tomorrow!.. love ya honey! mwahhhhh! mwahhh! mwahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

chubby rain...

baby..
u have been there with me..
whether it's raining or sunshine..
u stayed with me..
although sometimes i took u for granted..
u still being faithful to me..
believe me baby..
when i say that u mean the world to me..
i'm lost without u..
u showed me the beauty of the world..
u took me to the places that i can only dream of..
and because of that..i
will love u.. always and forever..
i love my scoot!!!

i went to sungei wang this afternoon..i went there to pick up baby sis's phone.. her phone LCD had to be replaced because she accidentally wet her phone last month.. that cost me RM 130.. T_T .. then i went to low yatt plaza to claim my hdd warranty.. i also bought a new hdd external case called "Hardbox" by Sarotech.. and not forgetting a new mouse pad.. X-pad by CoolerMaster.. ^^

on my way home.. i had the rainiest day of my life.. i'm speaking both figuratively & literally.. 1st.. i was hit by this fat chubby rain that feels like a water ballon dropped from the sky.. i was at the point that there are no points anymore for stopping under a shelter that usually provided at the side of the road because i was really soaked.. and of course i was very cold too.. i was shivering all the way from KL to Cyberjaya.. fortunately for me went i reached Cyberjaya.. it hasn't start raining yet.. so, the last few minutes ride kinda rinse my cloth of a bit.. ^^

when i reached home.. then i realized that something bad has happened.. 1st.. my mp3 player stop functioning.. due to the rain that went inside the circuit board inside the player.. immediately i checked my Xda II.. i noticed that it has been vibrating non-stop.. something really bad must have happened.. i try to switched on my phone.. the screen doesn't working properly.. there are some disturbance on the LCD... i quickly switch it off.. then i tried to lock my scoot with the alarm system.. the remote control wasn't working also because it was so wet... i freaked out.. coz the bike will not shut its engine without the remote control.. fortunately for me i had a spare controller.. so i went up to my appartment and get change.. then i went back to my scoot to shut it off with the backup controller.. fuhh.. it was such a relieve.. after i got back to my appartment.. i tried to switched back my phone.. the software was all mess up.. the sound was not working.. i tried to make a phone call.. it works.. but i can't hear anything from the person at the end of the line.. and vice versa.. T_T .. i really don't know what to do at that time other than pray to God to make things rite again.. and so.. i take off all the batteries from my gadgets and try to rinse them.. i put them in front of my desk fan till it dry off.. i kept on praying till it was around midnight then i tried to put them back together.. miraculously, everything turns back to normal except my phone had a hard reset coz i took off the battery more than a minute which make it lost all the data.. all my pics.. contacts & calendar are gone with the wind.. to make things worst.. my precious sms-es that i kept for so long from my dearest frens are also gone.. T_T.. put that aside.. i'm so grateful that all my gadgets are working like normal again.. Alhamdulillah.. Nadia told me last night might be "malam qialmulail" ...maybe it is.. coz i got just what i prayed for.. i just felt so stupid that i didn't prayed for something more important like good results for the final xm or for good health & for forgiveness for all the sins that i have commit all my life.. huaaaaa.....

ok.. i think i wrote a lil bit too long this time.. i'll continue later.. noone will read this blog anyway.. hoho..

let me cry...

huaaaa.. i really really wanna cry!.. i just washed my scooter this afternoon.. then i went to pyramid to watch "Ladder 49".. the lovely day that i thought would last at least until tomorrow turns out to be a very short one.. when i reached Puchong, on my way to the cinema.. suddenly the cloud turn to black and rain.. as the result.. my shining scoot that look like just left the show room turn into a dirt bike that just finnish from a muddy race.. huaaa..

after a stressful ride to pyramid.. i went shopping to cheer myself up.. i bought a new wallet from Bodyglove & a t-shirt from Renoma.. while i was shopping.. i entered this one sports store to check out their shoes collection.. i saw most of it are Adidas brand.. so i asked the salesperson.. "Where are the Nike's section?".. then the guy just looked at me and said "We don't sell Nike's".. with this weird kinda of face.. then i turned around and i realized.. i'm in an Adidas Store!.. no wonder there are no other brands in it!.. my face turn red and i just walk out of there as fast as i can.. yes syed syazmir.. u've done it again.. making fool out of yourself.. syabas inspector sahab!..

exactly 5.15pm, i went into the cinema and watch "Ladder 49".. i like the story.. but i think i'm too soft to watch this kinda movie.. i'm not sure why.. but i am sooo easily touched.. my tears pouring down just like the firefighter's water host.. i'm so touched by the courage showed in the movie.. how a stranger willing to sacrifice their own life to save other strangers.. how their wifes & childrens at home waiting for their return wondering whether their husbands & father will ever come home or not..it's so touching.. and i can't help myself crying in the cinema.. huaaa.. just let me cry.. i don't care anymore..

the movie finished at 7.10pm.. it's already time for "break-fast".. and can't decide where to eat.. so i just wandered along the lower ground floor in Pyramid till i saw Dave's Deli.. owh how i missed their homemade mushroom soup and their super-dooper-scrumptious lasagna & pasta combo.. unfortunately, it's time for "break-fast" for the muslims & time for dinner for the chinese.. the shop was 'full-house'.. huaa.. i wanna cry again.. finally i decided to just dine in Delifrance.. it has been quite a while since i tasted their 1st class croissant sandwich.. while i was concentrating & enjoying my meal suddenly my phone rang.. it was yah again.. and finally we met face to face in real life.. :) nice to meet u finally..

after that wonderful meal.. i headed home.. and as soon as i got off the bike.. i checked out my scooter with my eyes full with tears.. it looked like i never wash the scooter for one whole year.. huaaa.. just let me cry!..

hey look..it's saturday!...

it's raining heavily last nite.. for the 4th times i've missed my FNF... it's a gathering for my club.. the MalaysianBikers.Com (MBC).. we gather every friday night in Bangsar.. hence it's called Friday Night Fever (FNF) .. we would meet new friends.. talk and exchange infomations regarding our common interest..which is "bikes" of course.. and of coz we had dinner as well.. anyway.. it's a good way to spend the friday night instead of going to the clubs or getting high all night long like a scumbag.. unfortunately, i missed it again last nite..

lately it's been raining almost everyday.. which always kill my desire & spirit to wash my scooter.. but when i woke up today.. i look out the windows and i was amazed.. it's such a lovely day.. and so i went to wash my bike.. after i rinse my bike.. there was a car passing me by.. and my eyes caught a lovely sight.. a glimpse of a face that somehow soothes me..comforting.. then.. my phone ring.. it was yah.. she asked whether i'm the person she saw just now washing the scooter.. and so.. i realized it was her that i saw just a moment ago.. that was our first real life contact after i knew her since last year.. huhu.. tak sangka ko comel bangat ya nadia..

owh.. it's almost 2.30.. i'm going to watch a movie.. not sure what movie.. ladder 49 most probabbly.. where should i go.. Pyramid or One Utama?.. hmm.. i think i'll decide after answering my nature's call.. hehe.. mmmmmmmmmmmm.. i really got to go now..ciao..

here i am...

here i am,

wondering where u cud have been,

all my life i've been searching,

but u are still nowhere to be seen,

perhaps one day u will stop running,

here i am,

still waiting for u patiently,

to love u with all my heart & sincerity,

i pray in my heart constantly,

that someday u'll heal my melancholy,

here i am,

praying to God up above,

hoping u'll find your way to me,

i know we'll be forever in love,

coz u and i are meant to be...

::MiR::

where are you my soulmate?.. pls come home to me.. we belong together.. whoever u are..

2nd term...

George-Asshole-Bush victory in Ohio means he got to keep his presidency for another 4 years.. his victory also indicates the stupidity of the American voters.. and with this victory, i got the feeling that he's going to bomb more Islamic countries.. the war is going to continue for many years to come.. may Allah protect our country and all the muslims around the world from our enemy.. and let us pray to Allah that we muslims will be united.. amin..

shocking news : there will be a William Hung concert in genting.. what the hell?... william hung?.. in Malaysia?.. i wanna go! T_T

i wrote about the wonder of Rotiboy in the previous post.. and there he is.. the owner of Rotiboy in Latte at 8.. haha..

lone wolf..

am i a loner?.. if i find comfort in having my lunch or dinner alone.. watching the movies alone.. shopping alone.. i think not.. i do love being around ppl.. esp around the ppl that i care.. however i do hate crowds.. it's just uncomfortable...i must admit though..i do prefer being alone when i'm doing certain things.. esp if i'm going to the cinema to watch a great movie.. coz when i'm in the cinema.. i'll give my 100% concentration on the movie.. so what's the point having someone else around me.. isn't it?... plus.. i love the freedom to make my own schedule.. i dun hv to set a time.. or wait for my frens to arrive to the cinema which from my experiences.. they are always late!...another reason.. if i'm watching a very sad movie of coz i like to watch it alone.. i just can't help myself to shed tears.. i'm a tear-dropper.. i think i inherit this from my father.. he can shed tears just by listening to a very good song sang by a very good singer.. i remember when i watched "i am sam".. my eyes were like a waterfall..haha.. that's kinda weird coming from a guy.. isn't it?.. there's nothing wrong being sensitive.. rite?.. i dun mind having my meals alone.. although sometimes having someone to keep me company is nice.. i guess it's because i have always been alone all my life.. and i have used doing my stuff by myself.. and after doing it for more than 20 years.. i have learned to enjoy it.. yet there are also times when i want to do those things with someone else.. but i just can't find the right person to be with.. all and all.. i guess.. it's true i am a loner.. i don't choose to be a loner.. but i'm fine with it.. coz i know.. i am happy eventhough i'm alone...well.. at least till i found someone to be beside me.. a place which i have reserved for a very very long time for a very very special person... :)

boring...

just got back from a wonderful "break-fast" with alynn.. her roomates are not around and so are mine.. they got counter-strike tournament tonite.. so what better way to spend the evening than having a nice conversation & meal with my guardian angel.. rite alynn?.. :) .. and always remember this.. u dun need others to make u happy.. as quoted from "the laws of Manu" :: Depend not on another, but lean instead on thyself...True happiness is born of self-reliance :: ...learn how to please yourself instead of trying to please everyone else.. u can never satisfy everyone, so why bother?.. why should u care about what other people said or think about u if those people are the people that don't even care about u.. think about it :)

ok.. now i really don't know what to do.. i'm all alone in my apartment.. yah went out for movie so i can't chat with her.. that sux.. my msn messenger can't connect.. alynn bz with her assignment.. so i can't chat with anyone tonite.. i've watch all the movies on my dvd collection.. i'm tired with all the online games.. i can't go to sleep coz i've been sleeping all day.. hmm.. what to do what to do.. go study?.. naaahh.. not in the mood.. now i'm in the mood for some ice cream! yes.. ice cream.. i think i'll go to the "uncle store" and buy me some ice creams.. over n out~

ada apa dengan roti boy?...

everytime i went to Alamanda, Putrajaya.. i can't help myself wondering why there are a lot of people willing to wait 40 minutes just to get their hands on rotiboy bun.. what is so special about it?.. what kinda bun that can attract so many people to buy it until u have to line up & order then wait up till 40 minutes for a piece of bun.. at last, last week, my curiousity forced me to line up and order the bun.. hell, i waited 45 minutes for a piece of RM 1.50 bun.. but sure as hell it worth it.. and now i know why all those people that i once thought crazy enough to wait 40 minutes for a bun.. it's just melt in your mouth.. pure scrumptious!

my lullaby...

i dunno why..but everytime i listen to this song..i shiver even though my apartment is warm toasty... my heart races for the first two seconds and starts to slow down,...my eyelids flutter and followed by my heart beats get in sync with the melody... and peaceful embraces me...like i am back into my mother's womb... safe and comfortable...

srikandi cintaku - (search/bloodshed/m.nasir)

Dingin malam tirai kenanganku,
Menyerlahkan sekurun ingatan,
Terciptalah rimba kehidupan,
Percintaan dalam perjuangan,

Kesetiaan sebagai bekalan,
Bisikan mu penuh pengharapan,
Tiada garis dapat memisahkan,
Segalanya kudratMu Tuhan,

Alam bagai mengerti,
Segala yang terjadi,
Embun menitis panas simpati,
Pertemuan tiada awal akhir,

Perutusan berdarah ku terima,
Gugur kuntum di tengah halaman,
Medan ini kurasakan sepi,
Terpaku pilu,

Ku semaikan pepohon kemboja,
Yang bunganya adalah hatiku,
Semadilah dalam kedamaian,
Semangatku tetap bersamamu,

Kan ku usung oh jenazah cinta,
Semadikan nisan kasih suci,
Semangatmu tetap bersamaku,
Selama pasti,

Debu malam meragaut kengangan,
Menyedarkan dari lamunanku,
Percintaan dalam perjuangan,
Kau abadi Srikandi Cintaku.

*news update* : recently, i found myself a new addiction.. chatting with ms. nadiah.. i can't help it.. it's like drugs.. i keep asking for more.. to yah.. *cheers* ko mmg best..